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10 Years

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Eh, I was due for a journal update, even though I don't really have much to say. Come March 12, it will be ten years since I've joined deviant art and practiced art. I have improved a lot in 10 years, and I will continue to grow. I still do more writing than I do art, but I need cover art for books, after all.

I have gotten a steady job since then, and it has been taking away from my hobbies. It's really hard to focus on the things I like when I'm working to earn a living. Hopefully someday I'll find a balance.

And that's all I have to say for now.
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I wasn't there for you in the last few months of your life, and I feel like I've let you down by not even paying you a visit in the hospital. The least I can do is make this post so that some memory of you will live on through the Internet.

You were one of my good friends since middle school and I never once thought otherwise about you. I never once cared that you were in special ed classes, nor did I ever truly believe you were as stupid as you claim. Maybe you weren't some genius, but you were not dumb either- you were funny, polite, kind, and you respected others. You even stood up for what you believed in. Another thing about you that I will always admire is that you were honest. You took responsibility for your actions and blamed no one but yourself when something went wrong for you. That's a trait that even the 'gifted and talented' students back at our high school didn't have.

Your life did take a hit when you started drugs. You told me you tried it because you wanted to get closer to your fiance and try to understand his addictions. That was probably the dumbest thing you have ever done – though really, I believe it was the only dumb thing you did in your life – but even then you took responsibility for your actions and did everything you could to overcome the addiction and get yourself clean. It wasn't easy, and you struggled, but I know you did your best.

I was there for you during that time, though I couldn't help you all of the time. I tried to give you rides home when I could, and I always worried when I heard that you were on the streets. I'll never get to ask or know if you had actually used me one time when I drove you around town. I've always had my suspicion that you were shoplifting behind my back, but I never said a word because I knew you were going through a tough time and had to survive. You had no money and you starved some days. I forgive you if you did- the Beccie I knew probably didn't want to steal, and I know that if you had, then you felt terrible that you used me. You really did care about other people and you hated hurting others. If you had told me that you didn't steal during that time, I would believe you. I remember seeing you look nervous and guilty, but then you could've backed down and decided not to take anything.

I was there that week or so before Christmas when your mother called me in tears, wanting someone to get you to come home for the holidays. You had it bad then- when you got in my car, you cried and said how it wasn't fair. You thought everyone was against you and no one cared for you. The drugs had fried your brain and made you paranoid, and yet while you thought your family hated you, all you wanted was to spend Christmas with them. I tried to convince you that your family loved you, no matter what you did, but you didn't seem to believe me then. I hope that you did realize that they do love you long before then. Your mother wouldn't have cried so hard or begged so much if she hadn't.

Though I wasn't around when you got pregnant with Serinity, I knew then that you would do everything in your power to overcome your problems. You were good with kids, so I knew you would be a good mother. There was no question in my mind that you would better yourself for her sake. I didn't mean to distance myself from you. I really did want to go to your baby shower, but I had to look after my own family members. I did at least remember your birthday this year- it was the same day as Easter for my 'crazy religion' as you once called it… Well, it was also on Cinco de Mayo, so it's kind of hard to forget. I left a message for you on facebook that day, though you never replied. You were probably busy with your baby or baby shower then, though I wonder if you ever got it. I wished I did more to let you know I remembered.

It's awful that Serinity will have to grow up without you. At least we have a lot of pictures of you so she'll know what you looked like, and we have many fond memories of you to pass onto her. You have always been a good person no matter how many mistakes you made, so there's no doubt in my mind that you're in heaven now watching over us. I'll never forget the times you ask who 'Ed' is and suggest that the classes should be called 'Special Beccie'. And when I play Kingdom Hearts, I'll always remember how you laughed when Sora climbed trees and thought he was humping them. I have nothing but good memories of you and I'll miss you greatly. So rest in peace Becca- don't worry about us. We'll keep on living and keep your memory alive.

Bye friend.

Rebecca Byrd

May 5, 1987 – July 10, 2013

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I wasn't there for you in the last few months of your life, and I feel like I've let you down by not even paying you a visit in the hospital. The least I can do is make this post so that some memory of you will live on through the Internet.

You were one of my good friends since middle school and I never once thought otherwise about you. I never once cared that you were in special ed classes, nor did I ever truly believe you were as stupid as you claim. Maybe you weren't some genius, but you were not dumb either- you were funny, polite, kind, and you respected others. You even stood up for what you believed in. Another thing about you that I will always admire is that you were honest. You took responsibility for your actions and blamed no one but yourself when something went wrong for you. That's a trait that even the 'gifted and talented' students back at our high school didn't have.

Your life did take a hit when you started drugs. You told me you tried it because you wanted to get closer to your fiance and try to understand his addictions. That was probably the dumbest thing you have ever done – though really, I believe it was the only dumb thing you did in your life – but even then you took responsibility for your actions and did everything you could to overcome the addiction and get yourself clean. It wasn't easy, and you struggled, but I know you did your best.

I was there for you during that time, though I couldn't help you all of the time. I tried to give you rides home when I could, and I always worried when I heard that you were on the streets. I'll never get to ask or know if you had actually used me one time when I drove you around town. I've always had my suspicion that you were shoplifting behind my back, but I never said a word because I knew you were going through a tough time and had to survive. You had no money and you starved some days. I forgive you if you did- the Beccie I knew probably didn't want to steal, and I know that if you had, then you felt terrible that you used me. You really did care about other people and you hated hurting others. If you had told me that you didn't steal during that time, I would believe you. I remember seeing you look nervous and guilty, but then you could've backed down and decided not to take anything.

I was there that week or so before Christmas when your mother called me in tears, wanting someone to get you to come home for the holidays. You had it bad then- when you got in my car, you cried and said how it wasn't fair. You thought everyone was against you and no one cared for you. The drugs had fried your brain and made you paranoid, and yet while you thought your family hated you, all you wanted was to spend Christmas with them. I tried to convince you that your family loved you, no matter what you did, but you didn't seem to believe me then. I hope that you did realize that they do love you long before then. Your mother wouldn't have cried so hard or begged so much if she hadn't.

Though I wasn't around when you got pregnant with Serinity, I knew then that you would do everything in your power to overcome your problems. You were good with kids, so I knew you would be a good mother. There was no question in my mind that you would better yourself for her sake. I didn't mean to distance myself from you. I really did want to go to your baby shower, but I had to look after my own family members. I did at least remember your birthday this year- it was the same day as Easter for my 'crazy religion' as you once called it… Well, it was also on Cinco de Mayo, so it's kind of hard to forget. I left a message for you on facebook that day, though you never replied. You were probably busy with your baby or baby shower then, though I wonder if you ever got it. I wished I did more to let you know I remembered.

It's awful that Serinity will have to grow up without you. At least we have a lot of pictures of you so she'll know what you looked like, and we have many fond memories of you to pass onto her. You have always been a good person no matter how many mistakes you made, so there's no doubt in my mind that you're in heaven now watching over us. I'll never forget the times you ask who 'Ed' is and suggest that the classes should be called 'Special Beccie'. And when I play Kingdom Hearts, I'll always remember how you laughed when Sora climbed trees and thought he was humping them. I have nothing but good memories of you and I'll miss you greatly. So rest in peace Becca- don't worry about us. We'll keep on living and keep your memory alive.

Bye friend.

Rebecca Byrd

May 5, 1987 – July 10, 2013

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I just looked up and saw that I've been here for seven years- started here on March 12, 2006 during spring break and I was 19 years old then. I was in community college, just working on my core classes so I could transfer to a university without the 'acceptance' stress and spending less money on education. I was in a place that didn't have much technology, so all of my art classes were traditional only (not that I'm complaining), and all my art work was clearly crappy novice stuff.

My first deviation was My Alnel Avater -uncolored- by Myst-the-Wicked and I posted some of my old high school works like Cecile and Nyx by Myst-the-Wicked

But seven years later, I've graduated from college with a bachelors in Art and Technology, and until the State of Texas stops offering only minimum wage jobs, I'm doing my own thing. I'm planning my own games, writing my own novels, and digitally painting my own cover art and images for said novels. Does it make me money? Not enough to live on, but I'm doing what I love.

I made maps Fatesbane - The Continent of Orja by Myst-the-Wicked, found my own art style FF9 OC- Kuja's Nameless Doll by Myst-the-Wicked, and I even made a dedication painting to Big Tex after he burned up at the State Fair Big Tex - Larger Than Life Cowboy by Myst-the-Wicked

So this is how much I've improved in seven years- let's see what I can do in the future.
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Disclaimer: Some of the artwork posted in this gallery is fan art featuring characters from Final Fantasy, Star Ocean, and Xenosaga. The fan art has either been drawn or photoshoped in some way by me, but the characters are not mine.

Clubs I'm in: :iconvincentyuffie: :iconalnel-club:

Groups I'm in: :iconalbelxnel: :iconalbelnox-fanclub::iconstaroceanart: :iconstarocean-tteot-club:

My WordPress
My fanfiction
My YouTube Channel
Where you can buy Euri High
My freakin' awesome story on Kindle: The Rise of Heretics
My freakin' awesome sequel to Heretics: Trials of the Demoness and Harbinger
My freakin' awesome alternate reality of Heretics: The Fall of Destiny
My bitchin' story: Fatesbane: The Falucite Bride
My bitchin' second book to the series: Fatesbane: The Living Legend
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Yup- it's that time of the year when people start playing Christmas music and all I hear is 'Walking Around in Women's Underwear' instead of 'Walking in a Winter Wonderland'. Ahh... there's nothing like seeing sexy men in dresses :iconhurrhurrplz:

...Maybe one of these days I should put Satel in a kilt- not that kilts exist in his world, I just want an excuse to show off his sexy man legs :XD:

Anyway, it's high time I wrote something new here so I'll just give an update to what I've been doing lately. Currently I'm working on the second book of the Fatesbane series [Fatesbane: The Living Legend] and it's the sequel of the first book [Fatesbane: The Falucite Bride].

I'm also very slowly working on a game script in hopes of making a short Flash RPG, but that's all I'll say on that. I'm just saying in case my evil minion happens to read this and is wondering if I'm doing anything in regards to it. I guess that's all I have to announce for now. I actually say more on my WordPress site- and you can also find Fatesbane and my AlNel 'For the Prosperity of Aquor' there.
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Disclaimer: Some of the artwork posted in this gallery is fan art featuring characters from Final Fantasy, Star Ocean, and Xenosaga. The fan art has either been drawn or photoshoped in some way by me, but the characters are not mine.

Groups I'm in: :iconalbelxnel: :iconalbelnox-fanclub::iconstaroceanart: :iconstarocean-tteot-club:

My fanfiction
My YouTube Channel
Where Euri High is sold
My freakin' awesome story on Kindle: The Rise of Heretics
My freakin' awesome sequel to Heretics: Trials of the Demoness and Harbinger
My freakin' awesome alternate reality of Heretics: The Fall of Destiny
My bitchin' short story: Fatesbane: A Moment Lost
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